If I were to leave this world tomorrow I would hope that i have left a good mark on the people in my life. I think about this all the time. I always hope that i havent wasted my life doing things that are not important like worrying myself too much with school work. For those of you who have read “Contents of a Dead Man’s Poecket”, I feel like i may end up like him. Taking work too seriously and willing to risk my life for a promotion or an idea for work. I dont want to devote my life to things like that. I would rather devote my life to family and friends and love.

Latley I have been trying to not be overly concerned myself with things like school and getting in trouble or ALWAYS doing the right thing. Im trying to realize its ok to do the wrong thing somethines and take some risks or else my life isnt being lived. I dont want to leave this Earth with everyone feeling like i was nothing but a workaholic and that i concerned myself with things that didnt matter that much. I want people to say things like “she was a good friend” or “i could alwys come to her with something” or “i remeber the time we really messed up together, and it was so much fun”.  I hope that i can let go of my fear of messing up or getting in trouble for anything and live my life like it is my last day because i do not want to be sitting worrying and fearing silly things on my last day here.  You only get one life, you might as well fill it with things you love doing.